This Blog is part of the #365daysofselfcare challenge
I am still exhausted and feel generally off colour. Perhaps its the new thyroid medication? I’m really not sure whether its that or just my usual mood cycle but either way…urg.
I had to cancel on my best mate today and I hate doing that. I had so much difficulty yesterday outside in the heat, I think it makes my fatigue worse so when l woke today still feeling awful l knew l had to reschedule.
Unfortunately I then went into a spiral of guilt about cancelling, and then I saw all the updates about our lovely weather and went into a spiral of guilt about that too. All the should’s’ came out….l shouldn’t have cancelled….l shouldn’t be wasting this lovely sunshine, l should be outside enjoying it. I should be finishing my writing…. Oh my goodness my inner critic is LOUD today!
I Decided to compromise with myself again. I walked into town, had a coffee and wrote a little, got some supplies and then headed back home. I’m reminding myself that setting unrealistic expectations of myself is harmful and counterproductive. I’ve done what l can do, all the ‘should do’s’ can go away!