Day 16 Of #365daysofselfcare

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2018-05-15_21.52.12-01It has been a really tough day today. I had an appointment with the Mental Health Team this morning as I have been referred to them for further support.
I find these initial appointments so hard. The anxiety of meeting someone new is bad enough and then there is the demoralising discussion of my  mental health history how I am currently  struggling. It is never nice discussing past issues and being open with a stranger about all that’s going on, even when you know it’s for a good reason.
Then this evening Yang, one of my gerbils,  passed away. It was his time and it was peaceful but it was still sad to see him go.
The desire to self medicate with food was huge this evening. It can be hard to know when its OK to allow yourself that treat and when its actually not in your best interests. I decided that it would be better for me to compromise with myself and have a more healthy treat instead, choosing sorbet and fruit rather than Ben and Jerry’s.
It tasted amazing and I felt good for making the right self-care choice for myself.

Day 14 Of #365daysofselfcare

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IMG_20180514_000655_104One of the most difficult things for me to manage is my anxiety, which is at its worst when I attempt to be sociable. It’s a strange thing because l genuinely love people. However, being sociable makes me so anxious and l’m often left feeling utterly exhausted afterwards from the sheet effort of controlling my anxiety.

I find that my anxiety can easily snowball as lot of it comes from being embarrassed about my nervousness. I can act a little odd at times. l get super hyper and animated and end up saying the most inappropriate of things! The best thing in the world is finding friends for whom this isn’t an issue and l can completely be myself with, no matter the state of my mood. These kind of friends are priceless and a vital part of my self-care. I’ve recently reconnected with my old high school best friend and it’s like no time has passed at all. We spent some time together on the seafront today, eating cake and being ridiculous.

Day 10 Of #365daysofselfcare

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IMG_20180509_235911_197This morning I had a very much needed counselling session. Sadly it was my last session. I have been very lucky to be able to access 12 session from Care for the Carers in Eastbourne. The sessions have helped so much and I am now looking at other options so that I can have weekly support. They are a vital part of my self-care, I find talking with an impartial person so helpful. I also find that in having my thoughts mirrored back to me, I realise things or discover things I hadn’t seen before.

Day 6 of #365daysofselfcare 

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IMG_20180505_212423_769Today was my most daring act of self-care so far!
I’ve been here in Eastbourne for six months now. Due to what’s happened with mum and with my own mental and physical health, I have been isolating myself a fair bit. I know all too well that this is not good for me. It’s vital feeling at home and settled here, and for developing a social network, to get out and meet new folk
Today l was brave and went to the Bourneout LGBT drop in cafe. I was nervous but everyone was so friendly and made me feel very welcome. Had a lovely hour chatting and now l might find it easier to attend an event! Some high quality self care that is!!!